***Insight*** Obligations

I am sure you are all familiar with the old saying "Ignorance is bliss," well that is certainly true isn't it?

Our lives would be so much simpler, joyful, and much more care-free if we all just walked around in our own little worlds, not knowing anything about anyone else or our surroundings; we would just exsist living for and of ourselves.
However, things aren't like that for a reason (the first of which is that knowledge keeps us from getting hurt or killed, ourlives would be simpler, yes, but shortlived).

We, as humans live for knowledge, it is our strength; it is a wonderful gift. It lets us conquer nature, to some degree and even gives us dominion over animals many times our size and strength. Our ablility to think, reason, and create are some of the strongest forces, if not the strongest forces, in the world.

But with our minds comes something else, our personality, morals, virtues and our beliefs.

Part of being intelligent is not only knowing something, but acting in accordance to what we know in a given situation.

So, when we are are faced with a scenario that goes against our morals, virutes, or beliefs (being tempted) and we know that it does so, but give in and and turn our backs on the them, we are no better than animals. That abuses the great gift we have been given and mocks it. Even if we are curious, we must be careful, watchful and always carry our morals "in our pockets." If not, it's comparable to discovering a fire and thrusting your hand into the red-hot coals because you want to know what it feels like, even though you know it will cause you severe pain.

*There are many, many of these temptations in life and we must act according to that which is intelligent and what we know to be righteous. If not, we are in danger of regressing, losing our minds, beliefs, and personalities and becoming more and more like animals. And if we do this, we will have more peace and happiness than those who seek to avoid the temptations completely. Be intelligent, do not squander this great gift you have been given, put it to the right uses.*

Sometimes I feel kind of caged.

Pretty much all of us are stuck to a daily routine. It gets REALLY boring after a while. Especially if you realize you are stuck in a routine! There are so many things I haven't done recently that I've wanted to do. I want to:

1. Ride my bike North,East, South and West, and get myself lost just so I can find my way back.
2. Go camping in the mountains to look at the stars at night and admire nature.
3. Climb to the top of the mountain to see what that weather-station lookin' thingy is...
4. Go to Box Elder,Tooele, and Duchesne county.
5. Visit Bryce Canyon and Zion National Park.
6. Practice my wooden flute that I got as a present from a good friend a long time ago and make up a song.
7. Find a cave or explore a well known one.
8. Walk through Salt Lake City at night.
9. Get close to a buffalo on Antelope Island.
10. Follow a river.
11. Go Topaz hunting.
12. Meander through a lake, by myself, in a kyac (or however that is spelled).
13. Spend a day at Salt Lake's huge new library.
14. Spend a day at a museum.
15. Visit the Flea Market again (but remember to bring a gas mask :S ).
16. Go through the woods on the southern part of Mutton Hollow.
17. Climb to the top of a butte in St. George.
18. Go see the U of U.

There are lots of things out of state I'd like to do too, but these things are all local and are either free or cost little money. What do you guys do to break your routines? What do you want to do?

My Dad...

Heh, if I had written this a few weeks earlier I probably would have said somethings I would regret later; I decided to take some time off and get a level head before writing this.

Bottom line, my dad isn't in my life hardly ever. Period.

But about, ooh, I'd say... 2 weeks ago, he came back overseas from Germany (he's in the military and now has "a family of my own") and came to visit me for the first time in two years. Which is great, I think there was a period in my life where I hadn't seen him for 6 years.

Anyways, so he took me down to Las Vegas ( I absolutely HATE that place but almost all of my family from my dad's side lives down there), I down right refuse to elaborate the content of that trip but it was, in a word, "interesting." I awakened feelings for my dad that I had thought I left behind long ago, these including, resentment, dissapointment and shame.

Don't get me wrong, do I love my dad, yes, do I honor my dad, yes, but, I'll be honest...I'm kind of glad he's not in my life. I mean, I've done so well with just my mom and myself, what does he have to offer me? In the periods that my dad was not in my life, which would be around 80-90% at least, My Uncle Blessing, Grandma Cordelia, Grandpa Henry, Uncle Kalachi ( all of which are from his side of the family) have invited me into their lives. In fact, Uncle Blessing would take me to Grandma's every other weekend with his daughter, my cousin, Tyona and we'd just hang out. We didn't even have to do anything but those were the best weekends I had ever had!

My dad has since wrought a deep resentment toward Unlce Blessing, Uncle Kalachi and Grandpa Henry for doing these things; it has gotten to a point that he talks behind my Uncle Blessings back to my step brother Jordan, I have deep resentment towards them both for that.

Oh man, there are just so many things I could go on about but I will leave with this...
I am not writing this in anger or in sorrow, but rather that the readers can look at themselves and their relationships they have with their parents. You are truly blessed to have your parents in your life. I too am blessed, when my mom was pregnant, her mom told her that she should get an abortion or give me up for adoption. But no, she was brave enough to let me live and she has supported me, WITHOUT ANY, of my dad's help since my birth.

Relax!

Hehe, sorry, my blogs have been pretty, well, singleminded (religous I mean). Don't Worry! I am still the same old Dylan! I've looked back on a couple of the "***Insights***" that I have written and have realized that they are pretty deep and occasionally grim. Sorry! I don't mean to scare you guys off! I'll try to tone it down a bit.

***Insight*** Endurance & Eternity


Time. It seems it is constantly slipping through our fingers. Forever an enemy, and yet, also a comfort in the right circumstances. As we get older, and even now I'm sure, our lives are ruled by clocks. We understand that our lives are limited and we live, usually, for the thrills and pack as much activity as we can handle int0 the smallest amount of time possible.

And when we waste time, we feel the consequences.

I think these factors limit our ablilty to fully comprehend the endless vastness that is eternity.

"...Endure to the end." Yes, you have heard it many times before. And upon trying to heed these words, as you most likely have, and fail, you must think to yourself "Man, I'm going to have to 'endure to the end' for the next 80 or so years?! I can't even make it through today!!" Yes, temporally speaking that is our conception of "forever." But, If we remember that there is indeed life after death we will realize that this time we have, here, is so insignificant it is nearly non-existant.

Think of it this way. Think of eternity as a "wheel" (please refer to my last "***Insight***" for the "Circle theory"). Now, if we tried cutting up the eternity-wheel into sections of 1000 years, we would spend an eternity trying to do so! Cutting it up into sections of 1,000,000 years or 1,000,000,000 years, OR more would also take an eternity as eternity has no end. So, with this in mind, try imagining how big a section our lives would be on the eternity-wheel. You couldn't see it. It exsists, yes, but it would be so tiny I'm sure we would call it "nonexistant."

So, It doesn't seem like Heavenly Father is asking to much of us, huh? Our lives would be instantaneous events on the eternity-wheel. "Endure to the end" should be cake then right?

Wrong, dead wrong. You know how hard this life can and will be for us. In fact, this "test" (as I will refer to it, see "***Insight***" Misdeeds, Life's Harshes lessons) is so hard that Heavenly Father says, "...If you heed my commandments and endure to the end, ye shall have eternal life". I repeat, so hard is this test that IF we make it out, and "ace"the test, we will become Gods. He knows this is the only way we can ascend and be with him.

"Welcome, my children, to the Godliness Test. I want to comend you on being so brave as to take it. You have had no time to study, and will only have anywhere from 0-107 years to complete it. However, if you listen to me and do what I say, then I will give you all the answers. THERE WILL BE NO RETAKES. You may begin."

***Insight*** So many questions...


Have you ever just started thinking about the world and asking questions? I'm sure the answer is "yes".

But today, roused by seminary mostly, I have just had a FLOOD of new questions and ideas.
This is what Brother John was talking about today:

We began talking about The Second Coming (which was fascinating in and of itself), but then we started talking about the lives of those who are to live in the Celestial Kingdom.

ETERNAL life ,wow, I'll come back to that subject later.

Anyways, he then said that as husband and wife, being Gods, (like Him) we will have children, as married couples often do. These children will be spirits, just as we once were. They too will want bodies. We will explain The Plan of Salvation to them. We will shape a planet of our very own. We will create our own "Adam and Eve". And, one by one, we will send our children through the veil, and they will begin their trials just as we are now doing. Some will obey and become exalted, some will err, some will never hear the plan and wander through life, some will choose to disobey or not believe, and, sadly some will fall...

However, those who become exalted will become Gods too. They too will have children and our "grandchildren" will want bodies. Thus a cyle is shall be created, thus my questions begin to surface!

Does this mean He, was once put on an earth for trials just like us?
Where does it all "begin"?
How did it all "begin"?
Was there even a "beginning" at all? Is this the nature of the "universe"?

*Or is he truly "Alpha and Omega" afterall he sent down his son to attone for not just our sins but for those of our spirit children and our childrens children. I mean, it would seem to me that a Savior would have been sent down a long time before He became God. This is the only answer to my questions that I think I have. *

Where does the science begin? Where does the religion begin? Where do they meet and overlap IF at all?

What will we do with our Eternal Life?

I have a theory...

I think that everything boils down to "circles"

"...And his course is one eternal round"


The universe is made up of countless galaxies, and, science says, that this all started from the "Big Bang" ( could the Big Bang not have been His doing?) This was created by an enormous amount of energy being pulled by gravity into a single point of exisitence which then exploded, realeasing all of the matter in the "universe" This matter spread out, condensed, and formed galaxies, stars, solar systems, and planets. Now, all this matter is still expanding BUT gravity is slowly pulling it back in. *When that happens the galaxies will move faster and faster until they transcend the speed of light, transforming into energy. The energy will then come to a single point, explode, and there shall be another "Big Bang". This is the first of many "cirlces" that I see in the world. *

Can't you see them aswell? The entire UNIVERSE is made up of "cirlces" or, I suppose you could say "cycles". Water cyclce, the cycle of stars, "cirlce of life" (animals eating each other then dying, decaying into elements which are then absorbed back into the world, ect.).

And YES, even His life is a "circle." Therefore, "circle" must be another word for "eternity". I am sure there are "circles" we have yet to come across.

We don't know what make up things such as quarks and leptons (these are the things that make up protons and such) they are infinitely small. And the "universe" is, supposedly, infinitely big.
*Who's to say that each "universe" (if there are indeed more than one as many believe) is contained within the confines of each of those subatomic particles who cannot be broken down farther. Is this universe within the confines of such a paticle? Part of another universes matter and that universe indeed being in its own particle? ANOTHER circle is now created.*

Radical, yes, fact, probably not. But I have come to one final conclusion...

All these questions just PROVE to me that there is a God out there. This, "place" is simply too perfect, too complicated and intricate, too ingenious to all be mere coincidence.
Our questions shall bring us closer to Him.

***Insight*** Potential and Jealousy

This shall probably my most religious blog yet, hehe.

One thing that has always been hard for me is admitting that, I won't, and am not, the best at everything that I do. I find that people who are my friends I now have an unfounded resentment towards, maybe because they scored higher than me on a test or they barely beat me in the mile-run or in some other pointless "competition."
I think this all blossoms from the fact that when I was younger I was pretty much the best at what I did! Fastest runner, most artistic, smartes person in the class ect. Now though, that I'm older I see that these things are not nessesarily facts anymore. But I find that this is mostly my fault because I'm not trying as hard as I used to in elementary school.

Anyways, my point is that if someone beats us at something, we should rejoice! These are our brothers and sisters! We are apart of a glorious family and that greatness is in each of us. Our generation is said to be one of the most valiant of all time and, quite frankly, I agree. Does this mean I'm saying there have not been great men in the past? No. What I am saying is that our feats that we shall achieve are to be more numerous and extraordinary than those who have come before us.

When we see those Olympic gold medalists on T.V. or just that smart kid in math class, do not have envy! Rather, think of it as your potential. Think to yourself, "Yeh, if I work hard this is what I can achieve."

Heck to be quite honest I don't think any of us have seen our full potential and I don't think that we should assume we have met our limits. WE can and we will, every last one of us, achieve greatness if we only believe in ourselves! Look upon each other for inspiration, not jealousy! What you may want from other people, I genuinely believe, you already have!

**Jealousy is being blinded to the fact that you are just as glorious and magnificent as any person on this earth today, you may have just not unearthed it yet.**

***Insight***

First of all let me say that I really should be doing this daily, I'm not very good about it though.

What to say, there have bee so many things on my mind...

Well, this year has been different and far more, shall we say, developmental (if that's a word) for me. So the things that have happend this far, has been more than the past couple of years combined. I'm starting to get a better feel of who I truly am, and, though I'm not happy with some of the things that I see, I'm still thankful that I now know that which I did not before.

One of the things that has changed me is something that I recently read:

"...Is there one among you that doth make a mock of his brother, or that heapeth upon him persecutions? Wo unto such an one, for he is not prepared, and the time is at hand that he must repent..." It's got some power behind it huh? Its truth, I think, really applies to some of the people that I know, and myself. I will now give an explanation as to why this struck me so powerfully.

*Note: These names that I shall use are not the peoples' real names, if you would like the peoples' real names you will have to talk to me.*

The Fields family has worked with my mom, in the dental field, in the past and are sort of like friends. The Fields' son, Dennis, goes to our school and is not, by the general student body's view, "popular". He's rather strange and annoying at times but, all in all, he's really not that bad. Dennis's friends, if any, I have never seen.

He spends his time secluded and detached from everybody, but I know he is truly lonely. I have talked to him on occasion and when I do he talks as if there is no tommorrow! Telling me things like his interests, asking what mine are, who he likes and hates (skaters apparently) all from me asking how he was doing.

As I mentioned before, he is not liked by many, from what I can see but in particular, it seems the skaters hate him the most.
They make his life a living you-know-what in gym class and he gives it right back. I think now it's so easy for him to annoy and hate others, that he doesn't bother to do otherwise.
I can't help but think that if people, even just some of the people in school, started living the above quote (which I now try to) then we wouldn't create people like Dennis. Molding what was once a unique and kind boy into what he is today.

It's not by fate and choice that there are "Dennises" in the world, we made them. No baby is born prejudice, annoying, decietful, malicious, sadistic, homocidal, lazy, conceited, illmannered, or aloof, WE as a whole have scuplted these people into what they are. In effect, WE did this to ourselves.

With that I leave you with this; we must be careful with what we do and say to other people because with each action we mold them more and more into our enemies or, in extreme cases, our soon to be suicide victims.

There is NOTHING to lose by treating everyone as a brother and treating them with respect, none at all.

Wow, It's really cool hearing from all of you guys. I never thought that there were so many fellow deep thinkers and soulsearchers in our school ( then again, it's an Honors English class, we have to be gifted :P)

I think I'll use this blog to try and inspire people. Sure, there will be a few "My day was good" type of things in there but I'll from now on I'll put "***Insight***" at the top of the blogs I actually put thought into.

Thanks for reading guys!! >^^<

Ok well this isn't really that much of a post, more like a "Post-it" :) .

I just had a question for those of you who wrote the comment "...I hope you find what you are looking for."

Uhh, k... what exactly did you mean by that lol. It confuses me!

This post is to all those who have left posts for me.

I just wanted to say, thank you for your thoughts and comments. It's cool to see that other people are actually reading some of my stuff and (so I don't feel like a crazy person talking to myself :) ).

I had originally intended to keep this site as a kind of diary and intended to pretend to talk to other people as sorf of a gimmick ( don't know how thats spelled).

Now that I have recently discovered that people can actually read these, I'll try to be more interesting and less chaotic, lol.

*If anyone who reads this would like, if you could respond to this with your blogger address or give it to me when you see me at school, that'd be awesome! There are a couple of blogs out there I'm really interested in reading.

So...Thompson, You only read the blogs that are profound huh?
Well if you expect me to write something thought provoking for the rest of the year,well, that's just not going to happen lol.

I like to draw. Like, REALLY like to draw. I don't always draw daily but when I do I always finish it and it means something special to me.

That's why I get extremely , irked, I guess, when other people criticize or correct my art work.
It's how I express myself. It's how I portray what's happening inside me, the "battle" inside me, whether it's emotionally, spiritually, or mentally (though the pictures true meaning I don't think I will ever tell anyone).

My art is very special to me.

***Insight*** Misdeeds, Life's harshest lessons

You know, sometimes when something bad has happened (whether it's something I have done or some type of tradgedy) I ask myself, " Why would He let these things happen?" or, "I didn't want to do this, why didn't He stop me?"

But I have reflected upon the matter and have come up with several reasons why, He wouldn't intervene:

Reason 1. When a father tells his young child that he should not touch the stove and he makes it so that the child could never touch it, the child would never learn his lesson. However, the first time that the child chooses to disobey and touch the stove, he gets to learn a painful lesson! Even though, the father knows the child went against his orders, he is always there to mend the wounds.

*I think that metaphor applies to real life aswell; He wants us to learn. And even when we go against his direct orders, He will be there to heal us*

Reason 2. Tests of faith- Through hardships and trials, we become stronger. Each "lesson," each mistake makes us wiser, stronger, and more divine. Some times, I belive He chooses to truly test some of His children. I think He wants to see whether in ,times of need, we will come unto Him for help or blame and curse Him and shun him forever.

*This is what I believe one of the purposes of life is, to test our faith. We must never waiver and always turn to Him for help.*

Reason 3. This is what I like to call the "Happy Ending Factor". You know in movies how when you are watching it you say to yourself at the end "Gosh, why did he do that? He could have avoided a whole world of trouble if he didn't make those stupid choices!" even though the movie had a happy ending? Since He is all knowing, perhaps He knows that our lives will have "Happy Endings". Who's to say, what if by intervening He sets off a domino effect that turns our lives upside down and we have a "Bad Ending".

*I think He knows that we will all have a happy ending so long as we are righteous, no matter what bad things happen to us. Better to not intervene and know of the out come than to interfere and delve into an unknown fate.*

I don't question anything in life anymore. I know that when bad things happen to me, it's for my own good. And for this, I am thankful.

O yeh, by the way (Btw)

I posted that red post a couple of times on accident :)
Sorry!

This had better work!!

I did this a day ago and the computer started having seizures so I couldn't do much more.

Yay, I'M 15 NOW!! :D

I didn't get to many things for my birthday but I getting to an age now where such things seem childish and unessesary ( wow, I think I just butchered the spelling on that :S).


But my dad sent me a roman sword, I hope its sharp and, a greek helmet over from a catalog he ordered in Germany! That should be really cool since I collect such things and I only have 3 swords in my collection already.

AND I should get my permit this weekend!

I am really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, reall, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, reall, really, really, really, really, really, really really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really,
RRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY *inhales deeply* excited!!

Monday, September 25, 2006


Today was pretty average, nothing to special for me to write about

Got my homework done early (which is weird).

Watched T.V. for a while...

Then when my mom went to pick me up from my aunt's house (I got to her house before and after school each day) something cool happened!
She took a right into the empty church parking lot and she said "Ok, switch seats with me." It was pretty cool. She had me loop around the parking lot, twice, and then taught me the mechanics of reversing. After practicing parking a couple times, it was time to call it a day.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but I'm in no rush to start driving. It freaks me out, BAD.

But I should get my permit this weekend and I'll be able to practice a little more.
Great, one more thing to do :P

***Insight*** Who Dylan is


Dang it all!!

I keep forgetting to write in this thing!! Gar..I feel like such a fool. I REALLY hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the butt.

Ok so let me see, what has happened recently...

I got nothin :S

O well I guess I'll just talk about myself.

Well, to anyone reading this I'll let you in on a secrect that very few people know...

I'm not YET, a member of the LDS church; please don't think any less of me for that!! I have the same beliefs any LDS member has. So, whenever anyone asks me if I'm a member, I lie. I tell them that I am and that triggers the question "Well, why do you have an earring then?"
Truth be told, It wasn't my choice.
My ear was pierced by my mother when I was one and a half years old.
My mother is an inactive member and my dad is not a mormon, nor does he like mormons. In fact I have a very painful story about an incident I had with him concerning these things, but I shall not talk about it here.

Don't get me wrong! I love my parents dearly and they are good people, they just don't have the beliefs I do.

I am taking Seminary this year to learn more about the church as my knowledge so far is quite pathetic. Already, I have had some very profound experiences that I shall also not write about here.

I keep a journal. Not a regular journal, but a "thought journal." It contains some very deep theories and thoughts that I get, almost like an epifinay, when I get some time alone to think about the world and that which emcompasses it. It has some very interesting things, in my opinion and I think it would open peoples eyes.

I have my own set of virtues and even a personal emblem that I live by. These Virtues are:

Iron-will
Commandments
Mind
Body
Redemption
Soul

These are the things, with the scriptures, that I try to live by.
Along with these I have 3 Latin words that describe how I should become by living these things.
Avatarah, Invictus, Ultimus

I have 3 personal goals in life:

1. To live to be 100.
2. To become a master swordsman.
3. To master a form of martial arts or any other fighting technique.

I hate NO-ONE at school. In fact, if need be I would go into harms way to protect anyone who might be endangered.

I don't judge anyone either, I don't have the right to. I only wish that other people wouldn't judge me either.

I have one enemy in life and it isn't anyone with which I could, nor would I want to, pysichally converse.

Well, I hope that gives you an insight into who I truly am. I don't think that I have revealed these things to anyone before...

Note to Self

1. Red doesn't work on my template :P

2. Check for stupid grammar and/or spelling errors.

This color of text is supposed to be red.
I hope it worked.
Wait, no...silver...
now it should be silverish.
yeh it worked.
Okay anyways today 7th period was, in a word, interesting. Mrs. Loureiro (most likely spelled wrong) gave each table in our class an Element of Art that we needed to teach the class on. My group had gone on Tuesday and it went... ok. There is a particular person in my group, who gets on my nerves sometimes, that got to be our leader (I was screaming inside). Anyways, so today a different group went and presented their assignment and they gave out candy to those who answered their questions right. I won 4 pieces of candy: 3 Kit-Kats and a pack of Nerds, I love Nerds.
I had eaten my Kit-Kats and noticed there was a lot of trash on the tables, so I went around with the garbage can and collected the wrappers.
When I got back my nerds were gone and only the box remianed.
I said "Hey, who took my nerds" then I noticed that the person who annoys me was eating them. I asked "Why would you eat MY candy?" he had some of his own already!
His reply was "Because I could".
Then he stated jokingly "I'm so mean to you" and I replied, seriously, "Yes you are". He didn't catch, or maybe, dismissed my comment.
I was ticked off!!
I think what bothers me the most is that I would have glady given him my candy if he would have asked! But instead he chose to steal from me.
Honestly though, I hate noone. I just get dissapointed and annoyed at peoples foolish actions.
OK!

I'm done!
I just needed to vent, thanks for reading!

Ah dang...
I'm in trouble! I forgot to check the website and see if I had homework for this class, WHICH I DO!! So, sorry if you've been expecting me to write daily in my blog thingy because this is the first one..hehe.
Today was a rather interesting day. I felt pretty good walking in the front doors, which is strange because the usual feeling is one of despair (I think we can all relate somewhat, yeh?).
I must admit that I like to play jokes on people, I find is fun to create a little havoc once in a while. I do believe that Brooke calls them "lies" :). But I learned that I can go a little too far with them and that really makes me feel guilty and I leave school angry with myself. BUT, today was different I tried to be more tolerant of people that usually annoy me and I didn't pull and pranks. Other than the homework and 4 tests that I got to take I it was, for once, a not-so-terribly-bad day at school.

Ok. so that's over with; but before I leave I want to ask those who care/read this ever a question?
What are three, no, five ways that you wish you could do to make school enjoyable? Shouldn't be to hard to think of LOL.

Hello World!