***Insight*** Potential and Jealousy

This shall probably my most religious blog yet, hehe.

One thing that has always been hard for me is admitting that, I won't, and am not, the best at everything that I do. I find that people who are my friends I now have an unfounded resentment towards, maybe because they scored higher than me on a test or they barely beat me in the mile-run or in some other pointless "competition."
I think this all blossoms from the fact that when I was younger I was pretty much the best at what I did! Fastest runner, most artistic, smartes person in the class ect. Now though, that I'm older I see that these things are not nessesarily facts anymore. But I find that this is mostly my fault because I'm not trying as hard as I used to in elementary school.

Anyways, my point is that if someone beats us at something, we should rejoice! These are our brothers and sisters! We are apart of a glorious family and that greatness is in each of us. Our generation is said to be one of the most valiant of all time and, quite frankly, I agree. Does this mean I'm saying there have not been great men in the past? No. What I am saying is that our feats that we shall achieve are to be more numerous and extraordinary than those who have come before us.

When we see those Olympic gold medalists on T.V. or just that smart kid in math class, do not have envy! Rather, think of it as your potential. Think to yourself, "Yeh, if I work hard this is what I can achieve."

Heck to be quite honest I don't think any of us have seen our full potential and I don't think that we should assume we have met our limits. WE can and we will, every last one of us, achieve greatness if we only believe in ourselves! Look upon each other for inspiration, not jealousy! What you may want from other people, I genuinely believe, you already have!

**Jealousy is being blinded to the fact that you are just as glorious and magnificent as any person on this earth today, you may have just not unearthed it yet.**

***Insight***

First of all let me say that I really should be doing this daily, I'm not very good about it though.

What to say, there have bee so many things on my mind...

Well, this year has been different and far more, shall we say, developmental (if that's a word) for me. So the things that have happend this far, has been more than the past couple of years combined. I'm starting to get a better feel of who I truly am, and, though I'm not happy with some of the things that I see, I'm still thankful that I now know that which I did not before.

One of the things that has changed me is something that I recently read:

"...Is there one among you that doth make a mock of his brother, or that heapeth upon him persecutions? Wo unto such an one, for he is not prepared, and the time is at hand that he must repent..." It's got some power behind it huh? Its truth, I think, really applies to some of the people that I know, and myself. I will now give an explanation as to why this struck me so powerfully.

*Note: These names that I shall use are not the peoples' real names, if you would like the peoples' real names you will have to talk to me.*

The Fields family has worked with my mom, in the dental field, in the past and are sort of like friends. The Fields' son, Dennis, goes to our school and is not, by the general student body's view, "popular". He's rather strange and annoying at times but, all in all, he's really not that bad. Dennis's friends, if any, I have never seen.

He spends his time secluded and detached from everybody, but I know he is truly lonely. I have talked to him on occasion and when I do he talks as if there is no tommorrow! Telling me things like his interests, asking what mine are, who he likes and hates (skaters apparently) all from me asking how he was doing.

As I mentioned before, he is not liked by many, from what I can see but in particular, it seems the skaters hate him the most.
They make his life a living you-know-what in gym class and he gives it right back. I think now it's so easy for him to annoy and hate others, that he doesn't bother to do otherwise.
I can't help but think that if people, even just some of the people in school, started living the above quote (which I now try to) then we wouldn't create people like Dennis. Molding what was once a unique and kind boy into what he is today.

It's not by fate and choice that there are "Dennises" in the world, we made them. No baby is born prejudice, annoying, decietful, malicious, sadistic, homocidal, lazy, conceited, illmannered, or aloof, WE as a whole have scuplted these people into what they are. In effect, WE did this to ourselves.

With that I leave you with this; we must be careful with what we do and say to other people because with each action we mold them more and more into our enemies or, in extreme cases, our soon to be suicide victims.

There is NOTHING to lose by treating everyone as a brother and treating them with respect, none at all.

Wow, It's really cool hearing from all of you guys. I never thought that there were so many fellow deep thinkers and soulsearchers in our school ( then again, it's an Honors English class, we have to be gifted :P)

I think I'll use this blog to try and inspire people. Sure, there will be a few "My day was good" type of things in there but I'll from now on I'll put "***Insight***" at the top of the blogs I actually put thought into.

Thanks for reading guys!! >^^<

Ok well this isn't really that much of a post, more like a "Post-it" :) .

I just had a question for those of you who wrote the comment "...I hope you find what you are looking for."

Uhh, k... what exactly did you mean by that lol. It confuses me!

This post is to all those who have left posts for me.

I just wanted to say, thank you for your thoughts and comments. It's cool to see that other people are actually reading some of my stuff and (so I don't feel like a crazy person talking to myself :) ).

I had originally intended to keep this site as a kind of diary and intended to pretend to talk to other people as sorf of a gimmick ( don't know how thats spelled).

Now that I have recently discovered that people can actually read these, I'll try to be more interesting and less chaotic, lol.

*If anyone who reads this would like, if you could respond to this with your blogger address or give it to me when you see me at school, that'd be awesome! There are a couple of blogs out there I'm really interested in reading.

So...Thompson, You only read the blogs that are profound huh?
Well if you expect me to write something thought provoking for the rest of the year,well, that's just not going to happen lol.

I like to draw. Like, REALLY like to draw. I don't always draw daily but when I do I always finish it and it means something special to me.

That's why I get extremely , irked, I guess, when other people criticize or correct my art work.
It's how I express myself. It's how I portray what's happening inside me, the "battle" inside me, whether it's emotionally, spiritually, or mentally (though the pictures true meaning I don't think I will ever tell anyone).

My art is very special to me.

***Insight*** Misdeeds, Life's harshest lessons

You know, sometimes when something bad has happened (whether it's something I have done or some type of tradgedy) I ask myself, " Why would He let these things happen?" or, "I didn't want to do this, why didn't He stop me?"

But I have reflected upon the matter and have come up with several reasons why, He wouldn't intervene:

Reason 1. When a father tells his young child that he should not touch the stove and he makes it so that the child could never touch it, the child would never learn his lesson. However, the first time that the child chooses to disobey and touch the stove, he gets to learn a painful lesson! Even though, the father knows the child went against his orders, he is always there to mend the wounds.

*I think that metaphor applies to real life aswell; He wants us to learn. And even when we go against his direct orders, He will be there to heal us*

Reason 2. Tests of faith- Through hardships and trials, we become stronger. Each "lesson," each mistake makes us wiser, stronger, and more divine. Some times, I belive He chooses to truly test some of His children. I think He wants to see whether in ,times of need, we will come unto Him for help or blame and curse Him and shun him forever.

*This is what I believe one of the purposes of life is, to test our faith. We must never waiver and always turn to Him for help.*

Reason 3. This is what I like to call the "Happy Ending Factor". You know in movies how when you are watching it you say to yourself at the end "Gosh, why did he do that? He could have avoided a whole world of trouble if he didn't make those stupid choices!" even though the movie had a happy ending? Since He is all knowing, perhaps He knows that our lives will have "Happy Endings". Who's to say, what if by intervening He sets off a domino effect that turns our lives upside down and we have a "Bad Ending".

*I think He knows that we will all have a happy ending so long as we are righteous, no matter what bad things happen to us. Better to not intervene and know of the out come than to interfere and delve into an unknown fate.*

I don't question anything in life anymore. I know that when bad things happen to me, it's for my own good. And for this, I am thankful.