Pride is the greatest plague on humanity today. Lately, I have been having some very humbling experiences. Sometimes, the occurences are numerous but insignificant. However, other times they are large demons that I have to deal with.

I'm not sure why I have been put through all this as of late, but I am sure it will all turn out for the best.

One of the things that keeps tearing at me is that my mom has CONSTANTLY been nagging, criticizing, and insisting that she is right ( but to be fair, I'm not sure whether it's because of mood-swings I'm having or just that my mom is acting differently). I cannot go a day without her having said something dissapproving. In response to these trials, instead of talking back or arguing (the which I have never done or dare to do) I just go to my room and try to escape. But then she gets all upset and says I don't spend any time with her any more.

Hehe, yes it is a vicious cylce.

One of the other major occurences that have been happening recently is the Track Meets. I am a fast runner, and somewhere deep inside myself I'm sure I know that. However, I keep feeling the need to prove myself. Everytime I run a race, when I'm done I know I could have done better (whether I actually tried my best or not).
I guess my biggest problem is that I want to be noticed, important, and maybe even admired. I want so bad to be the best in all that I do. But with the way I choose to spend my time, I know this to be impossible.

I dunno how I will get over such things, if ever, and I do not know what will become of me after. Perhaps, I may not even get over it at all.